Fat. Boring. Ugly. Whore. Never Enough.
These words, they plague my mind. I call myself these names over and over.
Self Confidence… I lack it. But I would never let you think that. To your face, I will act like the most confident, self-loving person. But inside, I hate on myself constantly.
The thing is, I know that I am fabulous. Deep down somewhere, I know it is true. Or maybe I just know that if I keep telling myself that, it will become true.
Maybe one day I will no longer be fat and ugly and boring. Maybe one day I will be enough.
I just have to keep reminding myself, I am enough. I am beautiful. I am fabulous.
Would you be open to some feedback on this post? If not, that’s okay.
I have some thoughts (not harsh ones, seriously) and was just wondering if you were open to hearing them.
you know i am always welcoming of feedback.
I just wanted to ask because this topic is sensitive and I didn’t want to just put something out there if you didn’t want to hear it.
I’ve been working on this issue in myself lately. One thing I am realizing is that I can never convince myself of the truth, unless the truth is replaced in the original situation that made me believe the lie (I am not enough). I can try all I want to tell myself that I’m beautiful (and that is important, to affirm oneself) but affirming in and of itself can’t change the root issue.
It takes a lot of guts to go back to the root, and I’m feeling the suckage of it right now… but because of it I HAVE experienced some major truth replacing a lie, and the relief that comes with it.